to be honest, these days I feel so gloom. many things seem to get far far way from me.

friends. academic (yes, that shitty final project). family.  love.

I feel alone. eventhough I am surrounded by many people.

I feel like invisible.

I feel like abandoned.


I hate being feeler. then, keep that feelings by myself. such a masochist.

kamu kok seneng banget sih nyakitin diri sendiri‘, once someone said (hello there, if you read this 🙂 )

daripada nyakitin orang lain?‘ I said to myself.

I’m just a little girl lost in the moment
I’m so scared but I don’t show it
I can’t figure it out, it’s bringing me down
I know I’ve got to let it go and just enjoy the show

~ Lenka (sorry, in the mood of her 😀 )

alone isn’t always lonely. but sometimes, IT IS.

pic from there.