I should have

hello. sorry for the lack of posts. I don’t have any interest to update this blog lately. have nothing to say, actually.

then suddenly I remember, mba Fenty once tagged me on her post. about what would I want to be ten years from now. ha! I can’t even think what would I want to be next year.

but, daydreaming is not a crime, eh? (evil_grin)

ten years from now, I’d be 32, if I still had the chance to live (and the ages after).
my 32 should be mature enough to control myself.

I should have found my other half (ahem!), built my own happy and blessing family and have my own-designed house (hyahyahya).
I should have reached every inches of Europe (agak lebay ini), as that is my biggest dream ever.
I should have visited USA.
I should have touched SNOW! and made fabulous snowman (evilsmirk)
I should have known myself completely.
I should have made my parents (would always) proud of myself.

I should have reached every dreams I have now (in this 22 age).

then again, I of course, should never stop dreaming on. and pursuing it.

birds fly over the rainbow
why then, oh why can’t I?
— Over The Rainbow

anyhow, happy fasting all! 😀

picture from here.

People Do Mistakes

the terrible thing is, when you never learnt from it, no?

There are certain things in life where you know it’s a mistake but you don’t really know it’s a mistake because the only way to really know it is a mistake is to make that mistake and look back and say, “Yup, that was a mistake”. So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake because then you’ll go your whole life not really knowing if something is a mistake or not.

(Lily Aldrin – How I Met Your Mother)

Death

saya selalu merinding ketika mendengar/membaca/melihat berita kematian orang-orang terdekat dari orang-orang yang saya kenal.

saya ini takut mati loh.

saya emang seringnya sok ga peduli soal kematian. ya gimana, namanya meninggal itu ga ada yg tau. siapa tau habis nulis postingan ini saya meninggal, atau bahkan saya ga sempat menyelesaikan tulisan ini, saya meninggal. ya toh?

dan ya, saya takut saya akan meninggal ketika saya belum ingin meninggal. itu aja sih. who wants to be dead, anyway?

hwahahahahha. serius banget ya kesannya.

tapi, serius. saya selalu merinding kalau tau berita kematian orang-orang terdekat dari orang-orang yang saya kenal.

saya ga bisa ngebayangin gimana kalau kejadian itu menimpa saya. ditinggalkan orang-orang terdekat.

apa yg bakal saya rasakan, dan bakal gimana kehidupan saya setelahnya.

mungkin sekarang belum, mungkin nanti.

mungkin saya duluan, mungkin mereka (orang-orang terdekat saya) yg duluan.

nobody knows.

Ya Allah, lindungi orang-orang terdekat saya yang mungkin sedang berada jauh dari saya. semoga kita semua selalu dalam lindungan-Nya. amin.

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gambar dari sana.

eh gilak, serem ya postingan saya? heheheheh, buat bahan renungan aja kok 🙂