Absurd Idling Time

Idle time is good, and bad in the same time.

good because I could do anything without being followed by whole crappy deadlines, do whatever I wanna do. without worrying it’s not gonna be finished. there is no due date, I can change the due date up to me.

bad because it makes me fatter (the line is: EAT-SLEEP-REPEAT, as my friend, Aan once said in his tweet) and moreeeee emotional. in one day, I could feel happy and sad and angry many times. wake up with smile, having brunch while yelling out, heading town with anger, wake up from afternoon nap with smile again, then go to bed with sorrows in my head.

absurd, huh?

then, I went to Bengkulu last week. I spent around 10 days in order to make me feel refresh. baaahh. boro-boroooooo. my mom and dad was busy doing that Sensus Penduduk 2010’s things, Bengkulu is not a big city and nothing I could do except, babysitting my 7-years-old sister. there is a beach near my house, actually but… it’s too crowded dan bukan semacam pantey cem di Gunung Kidul sana yg asik buat ditongkrongin. lebih mirip Pantai Padang. malls? Jogja has the better ones.

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bertemu beberapa orang, berkenalan, sering ketemu, sering ngobrol, sering nongkrong, sering maen, sering saling mencela, sering curhat-curhatan, sering tukar kabar. singkat kata, AKRAB.

but, could that condition defined as ‘close’?

in some case, when you call them ‘close friend’, indeed they don’t think that we are that ‘close’. and that’s annoying. that hurts.

then I just could blame myself for being too sensitive and too feeler and too naive. what else I can do?

now I’m trying stay on the line I’ve been through with them. and have some self introspection.

It’s Love and it’s not Santa Claus


McKenzie: So do you have a boyfriend?

Summer: No.

McKenzie: Why not?

Summer: Because I don’t want one.

McKenzie: Come on; I don’t believe that.

Summer: You don’t believe that a woman could enjoy being free and independent?

McKenzie: Are you a lesbian?

Summer: No I’m not a lesbian. I just, don’t feel comfortable being anyone’s girlfriend. I don’t actually feel comfortable being anyone’s anything.

McKenzie: I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Summer: Really?

McKenzie: Nope.

Summer: Ok, let me break it down for you–

McKenzie: Break it down!

Summer: Ok. I, like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later.

McKenzie: You’re a dude. She’s a dude!

Tom: Ok but wait–wait. What happens, if you fall in love?

Summer: You don’t believe that, do you?

Tom: It’s love, it’s not Santa Claus.

taken from here. quotes of (500) Days of Summer.

I found this. For now (dan ga tau sampai kapan akan begini), I feel like Summer said.

I know, someday I will fall in love again. I just miss that feeling.

I forgot how it feels when I’m falling in love. but, I will. someday, feel it again 🙂

pokoknya, untuk sekarang ini, saya hanya ingin jatuh cinta sama Tugas Akhir saya saja :p (dan sepertinya ga segampang itu bhuahauhauahaha :)) )

*GALAU session di sela-sela TA*

PS: film ini udah ada DVD -nya blom ya? MAU NONTON! 😀