I tend to express my angers sharply, and I might become a monster, yelling out, throwing out anything, swerving the doors.

I feel like, if I make a loud sound, people would pay attention for me.

sometimes, I regret what I just did. but the other side, I feel satisfy. I’ve told everything that I want everybody to know.

and the thing I regret, why all those things come with angers? because I tend to keep my feelings on my own. keep it, keep it, keep it. ย lah katanya disuruh sabar kan? ya mungkin itu kali buah kesabaran saya yang sudah lewat batasnya.

and I learned that from my mom. itโ€™s in my blood, in my DNA.

cuma sekedar terlintas saja pikiran egois macam ini:

bukankah semua yang diturunkan secara genetik, kemudian dimaklumi?

yeaaahh, ini mah pembelaan :p

ah sudahlah, ini cuman curhatan, pasca kemaren ngamuk-ngamuk super dahsyat. apa lagi PMS kali ya. sebenernya saya benci marah-marah apalagi sampe ngamuk-ngamuk. tapi dasar orang-orang ini ga tau diri. dibilangin baik-baik malah cuek, dan makin lama makin ngelunjak. ya gimana saya ga marah?

makanya, demi menghindari saya mengamuk, saya sering banget marah-marahnya di Twitter (ninja) , or write on my private journal. tapi tetep, kalo blom banting-banting barang rasanya blom puas, blom bisa lega. dooohh, kebiasaan yang buruk ย  (taser)

gambar dicolong dari sana.